Well as usual i cant sleep due to my Insomnia Sickness.Everyone taught it's just me when i say i can't sleep. Truth is, I went to visit Dr.Tan and he told me i really have this and have to take sleeping pills. That's too bad for a guy like me, I'm only 22, i have so much problems to think of, my welfare of my family, 2nd i have a car to pay, house bills, dads car, my skin infection, my ear is gonna go deaf soon! and now another issue is my bro is going up KL to pursue his studies. He wants to be a teacher. Well I'm happy for him, we always argue when we were young now i finally realize that this small brother of mine has grown into a fine young man. You are going up KL this Friday and I'm sure I'm gonna miss the good old days we had. All the best there, I <3 You Shannon Tay.


I have to work hard to make things for my family easier. Maybe i made a mistake by not finishing my studies, but what can i do? as a guy in this family i cant afford to use up all my mom's saving. I don't know what's my future awaits me. All i know is for now I'm a DJ , my basic pay is 2k. & i got few students where i can earn my extra pocket money from. I just need someone to show me the correct way, or i can say YOU up there, please please show me the correct way, i don't care whether its hard work, all i want is peace and happiness when my work is done.

Dammit, this month i really wanna buy a lot of stuff, but i just need to save. HELLO I'm 22 this year. i got ONLY 8 more years b4 i turned 30! damn the time passes us by really fast! Talking about time passes us by...yea it's been already 9 month i knew her, well she's really one of a kind. i love her is just because who she is. i don't care where she came from or what, "when you attracted to a girl, then you're just attracted" I really find this one of a kind girl really different. 9 months and she still don't trust me hahahaha! maybe she's been through with this kinda problems before, i don't know" hahah lol, all i think to make her believe me is TIME, yea TIME will tell out everything. For me, i have no one in my mind accept her, all i do n all i does is her. She is my priority now. maybe one day if i lost contact with her i still will put her first when she needs me. Right now i can't do anything, maybe if one day i lost contact with her, i only hope that she remembers me till the very last day the earth stood.I wanna share with you so much more, if there's chances between me and you, i promise you that you will take a ride with me over the moon, we will come down sliding on the rainbows, sail across the oceans, watch the sun rise till the break of dawn, and the most important thing is that you will always be love and my love increases every day for you . You make it real for me.


Goodnight Sheldon Tay.