hmm at last got a chance to blog again...so lets see happen , came back fromgenting, super fun, dammm shee'ssoooooooo one of a kind... as usual la sometimes im happy and sometimes in sad, what to do i've already choose this way, i know this will eventually come to me, but its ok as i told her jz now i will continue to love her no matter what happen...jz now i wanted to tell her alot of things, but she's tired so let her sleep.... shes going for sabah for another month ryd. haiz... really sad when u see someone u love goin to another place where u here and shes there and she's with someone who can be with her. i know n i can prove my love for her is much more than anyone can... last nite she emo and she told me my fam cant accept her, she's is soo wrong n when i heard she said that my heart torn into pieces, cuz Y she must say that !! i soo damm sad... of coz my fam will accept, even if they dont accept i still dont care! but i know they will accept...i dont knowla what on her mind,,, sometimes i really feel left out , i feel i dont exist for her... i dont know.. all i know when this feeling hit me, i dont feel good, and i jz feel like commiting suicide. alot time d i dream i get soo sad and jump down from rooftop.. but as soon as i hit the floor i awake by my dream. sometimes i really want that to happen. but i dont know when its really gonna happen...haiz.. i dono what to do acctually no one can help me... my only listener oso is andy, and alot of things i cant tell him cuz i like to keep it personal.... dun think soo much la... the more i think the more heart pain,... this is her last week here better make the best out of it. later den i can emo,... cuz i cannot n will not contact her. i dowan to cause any problem for her there...someone jz shooooot me in my head!!!!!!!!!!!!!