siting here at 5 am nothing to do thinking about life and how its gonna be... damm dissapointed in my life, thinking how how the future would be in mylife 10 years from now... would i succeed in life. would i gain my dreams? would i gain my empire of my dreams? to have a big house....to have a big house which surrounded with nice green grass with nice sunflowers surrounded it...i know if i work really hard, if i appreaciate everdrops of sweat of coz i know. money buys everything..but money dont buy me something what i really want now... i know i cant get something that i want now. thats why im always down now.... i came to a point that if i cant really get her den it's ok i'll jz accept the failure in me. i will try hard to get her. i will never give up on here...even she tells me i got no single chance on her i will still be he good fren call her bring her out n have fun...but i think i cant do it cz i will hurt her more n its painfull i know.....so hard la... how? lidat la den how summore.